Dear New Year’s Resolutions,
I would like to begin by welcoming you into my life and thanking you for providing me with new excitement and vigor going in to this new year! But I want to be completely honest with you. There are three major concerns that I have that are preventing me from fully embracing you.
Concern #1: What if I try you out and I realize that you really were not worth my time and energy in the first place? I really don’t have the bandwidth in my life for that right now. I am a pretty busy guy with a lot of responsibility and taking on something new which might end up being a bust might actually throw me over the edge. Maybe it would be better, if I don’t try at all?
Concern #2: What if I try you out and figure out that you really are what I need in my life? I will be very happy and excited and everything will seem great. But then I will get busy with everything and might not be able to follow through with my commitment to you. Then I will just feel like a complete loser and conclude that it would have been better if I hadn’t started with you in the first place! Now that I think about it, maybe I should just put you on hold and find a better time to start when life is less hectic and I “know” for a fact that I will be able to follow-through properly. It really isn’t a great time for me right now.
Concern #3: Ok, this is probably my biggest concern. Hear me out, because this took a while for me to realize. What if I try you out, see that you are exactly what I need in my life, and then look back at my past and start feeling guilty that I didn’t embrace you earlier? What if I look back at my life and start questioning if I missed out on something? What if I start feeling guilt or regret? What if you force me to come to the realization that I was wrong about something important??? That is pretty darn scary for me! If I don’t start with you in the first place, I might be able to live with a certain blissful ignorance and never have to face the fact that I missed out on you.
So, New Year’s Resolutions, what’s it gonna be? Are we gonna do this?
It seems like most awesome things that happened in my life only happened because I went ahead despite these concerns. I mean, many experiments that I have tried ended up as major busts. But if I would not have tried, I would never have known. And I always learned something in the process.
And, the truth is, I have dropped the ball many times on good things that I have started. It has certainly taken a major toll on my self-esteem. But I have learned that sometimes you must strike the match several times before the fire actually catches.
And, yes, there are many things that I have learned along the way that probably would have made me live my life differently had I known them earlier. But I truly believe that the Almighty sends realizations and opportunities into my life at the exact time when I am ready to process it. For whatever reason, that clarity was hidden from me before, because that is what was best for me. And now that I see it, I have to embrace it and go full throttle ahead.
So, New Year’s Resolutions, I am ready for you. Let’s do this!
Happy New Year!